It's Been Awhile - Staind

It's been awhile since I could hold my head up high,
And it's been a while since I first saw you.
It's been a while since I could stand on my own two feet again,
And it's been a while since I could call you.
But everything I can't remember, as fucked up as it all may seem.
The consequences that I've rendered,
I've stretched myself beyond my means.

It's been awhile since I could say that I wasn't addicted and
It's been a while since I could say I love myself as well and
It's been a while since I've gone and fucked things up just like I always do
And it's been a while but all that shit seems to disappear when I'm with you.
But everything I can't remember, as fucked up as it all may seem.
The consequences that I've rendered,
I've gone and fucked things up again.

Why must i feel this way?
Just make this go away.
Just one more peaceful day.

It's been awhile since I could look at myself straight,
And it's been awhile since I said I'm sorry.
It's been awhile since I've seen the way the candles light your face.
And it's been awhile but I can still remember just the way you taste.
But everything I can't remember, as fucked up as it all may seem.
I know it's me, I cannot blame this on my Father,
He did the best He could for me.

It's been a while since I could hold my head up high,
And it's been a while since I said
I'm sorry...